Thursday, May 19, 2011


I walk in to the animation classroom, it's day one. 
Everyone is grabbing pencils and a desk. I don't.
I notice that everyone from the summer animation program is here. All with a desk.
I stand there awkwardly watching them as they all start drawing. 
The teacher is checking everyone's drawings so far. 
He gets to me,
T-"Why haven't you started?"
R-"Well I'm technically not in this class, I-"
T- "If your not in this class get out! I don't need you to waste space!"
Awkwardly I pack up my things and head for the door.  
Right before I exit the room I look back, nobody is watching, they are all laughing and celebrating getting in to the program.
I take a breath and leave. 

Then I wake up. That was my dream last night.

I didn't get in to the Animation Program this year.  I was so confident in it, almost telling people I would be doing that come September. It's hard, to think of other people who took the program with you to be there, and you won't be. Sure I got on the waiting list, but thirteenth on the list doesn't leave much room for miracles.

Life doesn't always turn out how we want it to, but we need to pick ourselves up and fight harder.  Who knows why my life is turning out a bit different then I thought.  It could work out for the better.  There may be an amazing opportunity just waiting around the corner, and all I need to do is take those steps.

So in honor of picking myself up, I have created a new website to showcase my artwork. World, here I come!

It's not finished yet, but it's coming along.

Has anything Disappointing happened to you lately? How will you cope?


  1. Oh I am so sorry! I have tried getting my writing published and so far it hasn't happened. What you are doing with your blog is great...and what a great way to look at your disappoinment. Great popst!! Blessings, Joanne

  2. I believe in you!!
    You have oodles of talent. And it's like you said, maybe there's some awesome unforseen opportunity waiting for you this year that you wouldn't have been able to do if you'd gotten into the program right away. Don't give up; you're amazing!
    Love you!

    PS. If you'd rather, just give me the names and social security numbers of #1-12 on the waiting list ;)

  3. Thanks guys! Also, Kristen, you are hilarious!

  4. Yeha Ramona! Don't give up! That must be so hard for you but keep working away - hard work pays off. And isn't it so great having the internet where there are so many resources that can be helpful and encouraging!

  5. I've been trying to get into children's books illustration of over a year! After sending out hundreds of samples, I still have yet to get a publisher interested! :( Keep trying!!!!!!!!!